@AuroranHusker, hold your head up brother. You're not alone in the struggle my friend. And don't apologize for nuthin'! This place has done the same for me as it is for you, and for that, I'm grateful.
This is what a good internet community can do when stuff's working right.
Also, if for any reason you have any issue with pain medicines and need any help or assistance, this is what I do for a "living" so feel free to PM me if needed.
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